various memory fragments from 40 plus years ago

Remember a dude on the hill (square) throwing mom into another psycho bitch meltdown.  Which obviously resulted in yet another savage beating for me at her hands.

As previously mentioned, there was an undercurrent by some hard core christians in town.  So this guy provokes a beating for me.  And he is confronted by another dude.  I didn't know either of them.  So the dude who provoked the beating is in his car on the north side of the hill.  Guy #2 is ordering him out of town, not to come back.  Yelling "Git out of here!"  Then punches him thru the drivers side window.  Guy one floors his car, smokin the tires.  Never see him again.

Another memory frag.  Remember the preacher from one of the christian churches telling a guy who provoked a beating he couldn't attend this particular church anymore, because others in the church were pissed at him for provoking the beating.  The preacher goes on to tell him he needs to be in church somewhere, just not this particular church.  Because of the unrest he has caused.

Another memory frag.  Remember dad bitchin at mom because her psycho bitch meltdowns were the subject of a mass mailing to all high school students.  By this time, enough teens had pushed her buttons, and provoked many beatings for me out in public.  So the letter said anyone doing this from the high school as a student would be expelled.  If they threw mom into a rage.  So dad is giving her shit for being the subject of a letter like this.  Don't know how I avoided a beating over this one.

Another memory frag.  As I hit fifth grade, the beatings had pretty much stopped.  I suppose the reason could have been that mom had started to get her shit together.  However, my suspicion does not give her this much credit.  My gut tells me I was approaching the physical size to fight  back.  I was held back in first grade.  So I was a year older than the other kids.  By sixth grade I was as big, or maybe bigger than mom.  And when she was kicking my ass when I was 5, 6, or 7, there was no fair fight.  I just took the beating because she was so much bigger.  5th grade, I think she realized she could no longer just dominate me physically.  And maybe one day I might fight back with at least some success.  So my gut says this is the truth.

Another memory frag.  This was after the previously blogged trip to my dads side of the family to crane for some holiday.  Mom is in a psycho bitch slow boil.  I think she doesn't want to go to crane because she already doesn't get along with them.  So she is taking it out on me.  Starts coming up with some made up bullshit about "dead skin" behind my ears, because she said I wasn't washing there.  That was the only time I ever heard this was medically possibly.  So I am pretty sure it is just psycho bitch pissed off bullshit.  So she has me in the front seat with my head in her lap.  And she is trying to scrub off the dead shin she claims is there.  And it hurts.  So I am crying.  And this is after the child abuse (true) by Aunt Jean.  So dad doesn't want to show up at crane with me crying with the scrubbing.  So for only the second time I can think of dad stands up to mom, and tells her to quit.  He probably figured out she was pissed over having to go to crane and be around the people who had truly accused her of child abuse.  So first time dad tells her to quit, mom mouths back at him, and keeps going.  The second time dad says he would pull over.  So mom quit.  This was maybe ten minutes from crane.  So you could still tell I had been crying.  So of course I get questioned.  And cover, as I was coached.  Dad had fed me a line about the family had to stick together.  

first or second grade.  Albert Erb goes to the school board and gets a shrink to talk to me about the beatings I am taking off psycho bitch mom.  Turned out to be a hot blonde.  She tries to hug me.  I pull away.  She goes to hug me again.  And I pull away.

She starts saying "this child doesn't trust me"  Erb tells her that I don't trust anyone.  And calls her aside.  I assume he tells her about this thing that happens.

There was a woman I was seeing at the elementary school.  I'm not sure who she worked for.  Possibly SMSU.  She is "helping" Erb with my situation.  So she talks to a phd at SMSU.  Who comes up with the idea to set mom up.  Throw her into a psycho bitch meltdown on purpose in order to film it on an 8mm camera.  They even ask me if it's okay.  I was afraid to say no.  I was scared of any adult.  So it happens.  Right in the lobby of the elementary school.  The idea was to take the film to people in the state legislature to give schools more power over this type of thing.  That is getting parents in legal trouble.  So later, Erb tells this lady the state legislature didn't buy in.  So the lady starts bitching about not believing she let herself be talked into participating in this scenario.  And that she was going to commit suicide.  I remember her even bitching at the SMSU phd in front of me. And I remember Erb going to the ladies funeral.  Then I caught something about the phd who had tenure being in trouble with the state legislature because it was his idea.  And he mouthed off at them that they couldn't touch him because he had tenure.  So the state legislature dudes start talking about cutting funding for his salary out of the SMSU budget.  So the university asks the phd to resign so they don't have to put him on trial to revoke his tenure.  Promised to get him a job teaching english at a Kansas community college.  Which he took.

So this hot blonde shrink tells Erb he is unprofessional for setting up my beating.  Putting "a hit on a child" the lady who committed suicide called it.

This hot blonde shrink starts going around town bitching that the whole town is guilty of terrorizing children.

I believe this is part of the reason the local hard core Christians got so stirred up.

They got the 50ish woman at the MFA grocery fired for screaming at mom "you are going to hell".  By threatening a boycott of MFA.

Densil Taylor owned a DX gas station.  One of his employees threw mom into a psycho bitch rage.  And like always I took a savage ass kicking.  And before we left local christians were bitching at Densil.  saying they would get together with the other christian church in town and boycott his station.  Unless he fired the guy who provoked moms meltdown.  Densil hollared at the guy accross the lot to "git out of here!  I'll mail you your check".

play date

So mom gets a call from a woman with a boy the same age as me.  And they set up a play date.
I don't like the kid, and when mom asks if I want to play with him, I say no.  Yet again mom gets pissed and says we are going anyway.

So we get to their place, and we are supposed to start playing.  And I really didn't like this kid.  So I tell him to go ahead and play, and I'll watch.  That lasts a couple of minutes.  And I still refuse to participate.  By this time I had resigned myself to the understanding that I would rarely be able to guess the correct answer.  And  mom was a psycho bitch who would lose her temper no matter what I said or did.  Which meant I would take these beatings no matter what.  My phd was understanding the psycho bitch would get pissed no matter what.  So I end up taking another beating here.  While the other mother was screaming at mom  

Patsy H

So my mom and Patsy H were friends at one time.  And I had been in their home a few times in my early childhood.  So Patsy decided to "talk" to my mom on the hill (square) one day.  Didn't hear what was said, but whatever was said threw my mom into a psycho bitch rageaholic meltdown.  And lets all say it together, this resulted in my taking yet another savage beating at my moms hands until the rage subsided.  So Bill Kehoe was a Greene County sherriff deputy.  And his beat was my town.  So he is present as I am taking my beating.  So Patsy H starts screaming for him to "Do something Bill!"  So he stands there watching for a few seconds, while Patsy H is still screaming "Do something Bill" over and over.  So Bill Kehoe tells mom, "Get off my square".  And mom leaves.  And as Mom is loading me up in the car, Patsy H asks Bill Kehoe, "Who is your boss?".  Bill Kehoe tells her sherriff Mickey Owen.  So fast forward a few days.  I get pulled out of first grade.  I am walking down the hall with Mrs Clark.  Who is telling me the sherriff wants to see me.  As if I should be impressed.  And I am scared.  I actually think they want to kill me.  So I start crying and ask Mrs Clark to not let them kill me.  Si at the principles office Mrs Clark tells Erb, in an effort to cancel the whole thing.  By then I truly believe I am about to die.  And my whole body is trembling.  Erb says to bring me in the office anyway.  Sherriff Mickey Owen is there.  And Bill Kehoe.  And Owens starts telling Kehoe how unacceptable his actions were.  And fires him.  Then asks why I am trembling.  Mrs Clark tells him.  And Owens and Kehoe leave.  Mrs Clark and Erb begin arguing.  And Mrs Clark asks to speak to Mr Thomas.  The superintendent.  And we do.  Mr Thomas tells Erb he is his man in charge in the elementary school.  And he relies on him to make on the spot decisions.  Mrs Clark points at me and says that I am still shaking.  Mr Thomas starts talking about possible bad pub that may result.  And calls Owens.        

baseball

So this is like first grade.  Some parents are trying to get together a little league team.  And need one more child from my class.  So Gracie B thinks of me.  And calls my mom.  By this point I have a phd in moms rageaholic meltdowns that result in my beatings.  So mom calls me over, and asks me if I want to play baseball.  I had a ball and baseball glove I played with.  As I was thinking this is liable to end in another beating if I don't do well, I say no.  So mom gets an angry look on her face.  And tells me I am going to play anyway.  Flashes of anger like this scare me more.  So I am taken out to the ball field.  And am asked to go out on the field.  I start saying over and over "I don't want to".  Trying to avert possible beatings by not screwing up. So mom starts screeching for me to be dragged out onto the field.  Eventually we are told to leave, because I will not be forced to play.  Surprise, surprise, I start taking yet another psycho bitch savage beating.  A Greene County sherrifffs deputy is dispatched.  And when the dude shows up, the assault is still underway.  So the deputy sits there maybe a minute watching the assault.  Then gets out and places mom under arrest.  As this is on school property, and my father is a teacher, I am sent to my father.  I go in the office.  Dad doesn't want me there, and sends me out into the classroom.  The deputy is watching thru the windows.  And orders me back into dads office.  Dad orders me back into the classroom. So the deputy steps into the office and tells dad to stand and put his hands behind his back.  Dad asks "what's the charge?".  Deputy says "interfering with an investigation".  Dad says as a school teacher he will automatically be fired if arrested.  No questions asked.  And asks the cop to reconsider.  So dad is not arrested.  But mom is.  Dad says mom needs to stay there a few days to learn to control her temper.  And he does.  And mom screams at him about not bailing her out a few days later.

So fast forward to school a few days later.  The grade school principal Albert Erb pulls me out of class because he is talking to a judge on the phone who is ordering him to bring me to his courtroom. initially Albert Erb refuses.  So the judge tells Erb he will issue an arrest warrant for him.  So Erb does a 180, and tells the judge he will have me there in 20 minutes.  So in the courtroom some of the parents who tried to get me to play baseball are there.  The judge questions them about knowing of moms rageaholic meltdowns.  After having read them their Miranda warning.  They admit knowing before asking to have me on the team.  So then the judge tells them they just had a bench trail, and they are  guilty of felony child endangerment.  And being a convicted felon is a red letter day in their lives.  Then encourages them to appeal.  I think this judge wanted to be overturned.  And that he wanted the town buzzing about what could happen if you put children in danger.

So Chris Bs dad confronts dad about his "crazy wife".  And wants him to pay for the lawyer to appeal.  Dad says no.  And Chris Bs dad threatens to kick dads ass.  Dad stands up.  And chris bs dad sees he is not big enough to seriously challenge dad.  And steps off

My parents were summoned to hear a sermon at a local church so that they could hear something that personally concerned them.  And of course it concerned moms psycho bitch rageaholic meltdowns.  So the pastor starts talking about how a good solid christian has an obligation to stop an assault on a child in their presence. So my older brother Mike starts saying over and over to me, "They are talking about you".  Says it over and over excitedly.  As if I didn't understand.  When obviously I did.  So I am sitting there in the pew hoping Mike shuts up.  As you can visibly see mom stewing in a rage.  So Mike keeps repeating himself over and over loud enough for the whole church to hear.  So Mom gets up and starts ordering Mike to shut up over and over.  And from Mikes' perspective, why should he.  He never takes a beating when mom gets pissed.  It's always me.  No matter who does the pissing off.  So the pastor is watching this from the pulpit.  And gives an instruction to the church elders to take a pre planned course of action.  So several adult males come between the pews, and start telling mom to leave the church.  As she is clearly enraged.  To this day I don't understand why she didn't start kicking my ass before this point.  So she is initially refusing to comply with the instruction to leave the church.  But eventually she does.  And the whole church empties out into the parking area.  And the preacher is telling mom to leave the property on foot.  While us kids are standing by our car.  Guess he knew if she came our way, I would take an ass kicking.  Mom is trying to force her way past the preacher towards us.  While this is going on, the preacher calls out to his congregation about how everyone was in on keeping mom under control with force.  At that point several adult males join in on barring mom from coming our way.  Mom calls out to dad "to defend me".  And a man standing next to dad tells him there are people prepared to go to jail, which must have meant a fistfight would go down.  So dad said something about he wasn't going to get involved physically.  So mom walks toward the square, and eventually we get her in the car.  And she never did try and get at me.  Although she bitched at dad for not fighting for her.

So by now you should understand how bizarre my moms rageaholic meltdowns were.  And the beatings I took as a result.

And no, I do not make this up.

And no I do not add fiction to fact.  It is all true as I remember it.

continued from previous post

So this 2nd second grade teacher was fired also.  She disappeared too.

4th grade.  Mrs Morris is the teacher.  I was having trouble learning division.  So she calls mom.  Doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out this triggers yet another psycho bitch meltdown. And yes I take another beating.  This is only one of 2 times that my father did anything about the beatings.  He walks back to my room where I am being  beat.  And tells mom "this needs to stop".  She glares at him.  And he turns and walks away.  Next morning he asks me to take him to my classroom.  He's a teacher, remember.  He points to my bruised face, and tells Morris not to call mom.  Cause mom is crazy.  So Morris goes on about how dad will then have to coach me on division.  Dad tells her, "So you are coming over and doing my work on the farm".  Morris says "no".  Then dad tells her "either you tutor him, or it's not gonna happen".  And she did.  Morris tells Erb about the beating.  Erb tells her that if it is reported to the state, mom just hires a lawyer, and it all goes away,  "We've been down this road before"

Which was true.  Mom was in court over the beatings.  I was scared shitless.  So I get put on the stand.  They tried to swear me in.  Due to my coaching I just said "I don't know"  about the telling the truth thing.  The judge finally gets me to say yes about telling the truth, but I just revert to "I don't know"  over and over.  Mom was right there.  And all I could do was picture yet another psycho bitch meltdown.  So the judge throws out the case.  So we all leave, me, mom, her lawyer.  Front steps of the courthouse.  Lawyer tells mom she has to control herself.  Guess what, another psycho bitch meltdown, right there on the courthouse steps.  So I am getting beat.  Someone gets a bailiff out there to pull mom off me.  Judge reconvenes court.  I gut put on the stand.  My face is in the process of swelling up.  But again, "I don't know when questioned on the stand.  Case thrown out.   And mom jumps up and yells something at the judge, ending in pointing her finger at the judge while yelling "motherfucker".  So the judge says something about contempt of court.  And Mom gets taken to jail.  I end up in the judges chambers.  And someone gets sent out for food for me.  Which was good.  Dad shows up, and takes me home.  I overhear him saying something about leaving her in jail to teach her a lesson.  Which he does.  When she gets home a few days later mom raises hell with dad for not bailing her out quicker.

I was there when mom hired the lawyer.  At the lawyers office.  I was left outside with the secratary until mom explained to the lawyer.  Then I was sent in.